Uncertainty (noun): not confident, assured, or free from hesitancy.
Lately, for me, uncertainty has been at the forefront of my mind. In just a few short weeks I am graduating from college and leaving behind all things familiar: A group of the best friends I could ever ask for. A sorority that has helped shape me into the woman I am. The best university in the world (unbiased, obviously). Professors who have become more like second parents. And, of course, the town that I call home.
For the first time in my life, I am truly unsure of my next step. For me, the reason that graduation is so scary is because I suddenly have to start all over. I have to move away, get a job and enter this thing called the “real world.” It seems as though while I have been busy enjoying the “best four years of my life” now I am completely unprepared for the next forty. Knowing that 16+ years of education is quickly coming to an end, and realizing you’re now supposed to just “do something” with it can be slightly overwhelming.
For many, including myself, the confusion around what we want to do with our lives is a reflection of the confusion we have about who we want to be. For many years our identity has been found in being a student, yet now we quite simply don’t know who we are. Some would call these growing pains - they indicate the work we need to do within ourselves to understand what we truly want and who we are. Part of this work is accepting that there are things we cannot control. So how do we wade out of confusion and embrace this uncertainty?
As humans, our natural inclination is to try and accurately forecast exactly what is going to happen next. Something that I’ve really clung to over these past few weeks is that although our circumstances may seem uncertain, our God is not. We are experiencing only apparent uncertainty. Our future and our provision and ultimate triumph are all very certain to God. He has all the foreknowledge, power, resources, and desire to turn everything for good for us. It is in these seasons of uncertainty that our faith can truly be tested, but it is also is these seasons that some of the most powerful “God-moments” can be found.
Photography by Garrett Lobaugh